Life is NEVER easy.

Life is never easy. And those who think it is, have never truly lived.

I am moving from Provo to Logan, Utah. I am excited about my move but there are things.. or rather people here in Provo that are making me want to stay. My best friend for one. I am going to miss her, my fear is that the people I am close to will forget about me, find a new friend and move on. I mean, that is how the world works. It has always been like that. I made the decision to move because I wanted to get a new start. Meet people who never knew the "big" Jenna. They only know the normal size Jenna.. the active Jenna.. and who knows, maybe I would meet someone in the process. Get married.. have that life. There have been a couple of opportunities lately that I wanted to peruse, but my move is making that VERY difficult. Moving to Logan, so far from everyone is changing everything. I have asked myself why I made that decision.. and it wasn't so much me, but my father in heaven. I received a prompting to go, to get out of Provo. So I have the summer to finish up here with work and school. It should be interesting. I have a feeling I am going to be pretty busy. 


My heart is telling me one thing but my head is telling me another. I don't know what to do. So I was told, "Let's just have fun this summer.." So that is what I am going to do. My last summer in Provo, and then on to Logan I go. I have a friend that will be going on a mission soon. I am so sad about it! It breaks my heart that I will not see him for two years. SO much can happen in two years, and neither he or I will be the same person when he comes home. But I plan on writing him as much as he wants me to. Every week, every 2 weeks, every month. Whatever he wants, I want to keep constant contact. He is the closest person I have been to, that is going on a mission now. I have had friends go, but nothing like this. So I am sad. But you know, serving the lord comes first- and I am so proud that he made that decision to go. It is a big sacrifice. But he is not going for about a year anyway.. maybe a little less. He does not want me going to Logan. That was such a hard thing to hear, because it makes me not want to go- at least until he leaves for his mission.. :( I am not going to think about all of the sad things this summer, it is all about having fun, getting to know people, and sometimes there is a cherry on top.


I started at Book X Change in Orem two weeks ago, and I really love it there. It was super chill until finals- we have been pretty slammed and I see it only getting worse. So I have been on my feet a lot the past couple of days. My back is killing me with the amount of books I am carrying. My co workers are "rawr"-ing at me as well.. Oh me. Then they laugh.. it has been an interesting week to say the least. 


I posted this on Facebook last night.. just to give you of what a normal day with my best friend is:


"What Mariah has done tonight: Talked in a low voice with a lisp, gnawed on Melanie's face as if she didn't have teeth, pointed at us with her toes, laughed in the hallway and I thought she peed on herself... it was just drool though, laughed hysterically at air (she is still doing that), tried to mimic a crazy persons face and walk in the hallway while staring at me in my bedroom.. although she was laughing too hard by this point to even complete that task, went into the bathroom, said "Damn it!" really loud.. then came in my room and tried to personally take out my hair extensions, fell on top of me trying to grab my hair, rubbed her face on my shoulder like a cat, directed the nutella jar with a butter knife, started eating Nutella..figured she couldn't get anymore Nutella with the butter knife so she attempted to lick the jar, when that didn't work she asked for a pair of scissors, then asked Melanie if she wanted any HAHAHAHA hit me in the shoulder with her pony tail/bun and then said "Hey! She's not the devil Momma!".. oh and last but not least.. tried to dry her arm pits with her flailing hands. dear lord.


Mariah: "Thats awesome. I would like to reward you with 5 minutes of uninterrupted eye contact..." then proceeds to stare at me."


Yep. HAHAHA. It has been very interesting living with her. I love it, and I am really sad to leave. I mean how many fun nights like that can I have? But then I thought, I really need to finish school so, not having my closest friends around except when I come down on the weekends might not be a bad idea. That will give me a chance to finish up as quickly as I can. I will be taking some semesters off, every two. Just because my Pell and Loans will only pay for 2 a year, not 3. So the Summers I will take off, and go in the Fall and Spring, and finish at Utah State University. I will be an AGGIE!!! I really do love that school. I am excited to start there. 


Oh quick update.. as you can see I have lost a lot... but the big number is that I have lost 86 pounds since I moved here. YAY!


Anyway, that is as much of an update as I can give for time being. Until next time.


xoxo