It is time to blog again. I keep taking crazy breaks. Oh well. I know that there are some people that do not have me added on FB that tend to keep up with me here, so I really should update more often. I have been so busy lately, and sick, so blogging has been the last thing on my mind. I also notice, that the happier I am, the less I blog. I use it more to get things out than anything, but this update is necessary. :)
So in the first week of March I found out that I was about 4 weeks pregnant. It has been an adventure to say the least. At 5 weeks 5 days, I started getting morning sickness, that turned into hyperemesis gravidarum which is a severe form of morning sickness. Basically I wasn't getting enough nutrients myself mostly in part because of the gastric bypass, but I became pretty weak, and eventually was admitted to LDS hospital, as that is where I will be delivering. Shaun has been absolutely perfect.. Not just because I am sick, but through out everything. Since I met him, every day he amazes me more and more. I am not sure how I ended up so lucky, but I am thankful. Oh so thankful.
As of today I am 11 weeks and 6 days pregnant. I am so close to the second trimester I can nearly touch it. I am ready to feel better. I was released after a night, and I am back at home now. My diet consists of: Gatorade, Cranberry juice (not cocktail), protein drink similar to Ensure that is for diabetics (because I can not have sugar or lactose), sugar free pudding cups, crackers, and various types of broth. I feel hungry, but I get so sick off of everything, I would nearly rather starve.
We have names picked out, but they are subject to change. I mean, they are permanent.. so we need to pick ones that we really love. Shaun picked out the girl name- Loralei Rae; and I picked out the boy name- Grayson David. We are very excited to bring a little miracle into the world. I just wish my body felt better. I have been on leave from work for a while, and will stay on leave until 14 weeks. Just to make sure I am safe to go back. I do not want to leave them hanging.
I want to rant about a few things while I am here. With all of the amazing things happening in my life, there are always a few rotten situations that bring me down. The first one is that because this pregnancy is a miracle- I was told for nearly 10 years I couldn't have kids- we are naturally very excited. Our families are excited, and everyone is overcome with joy. Especially my Mom, of course. But my friends that are LDS (not all.. just most) are not really supportive. Thats okay, what sucks is that around 95% didn't even say congrats. These are friends I have been extremely close to in the past. They think that I am this sinful person that just fell completely off the band wagon, and shunned. At least that is what I am assuming. They don't talk to me anymore, and it kinda breaks my heart. Its not like I was out with some random guy and got knocked up. Shaun and I talked about getting married a good month or so before I found out I was pregnant. This was something that was already in the works, the baby has nothing to do with it- it is just a little extra surprise. We are getting married, we love each other very much. I couldn't imagine my life without him. 26 years is a heck of a time to wait to be with someone. I feel like I have known him my entire life. Anyway, back to topic. I just wish people would not judge so quickly, and just be happy for someone else's happiness. My happiness is because I found who I am supposed to be with and we have created a life. It is a pretty amazing feeling.
Anyway, I am due November 9th. :)
Until next time.
